getting rid of the shades of gray
i felt like i was leading you on. so now im going to keep my distance. he said id need to in order for you to get over me and move on. so here goes…
its going to hurt the both of us. but its going to make us better in the end. and we’ll actually be able to become that set of BEST FRIENDS in the whole world that we dream about now. i had a dream last night that you came back. sad and depressed at first. but then everyone who really loves you and missed you these last three years came into the picture (uncles, allen, freddyboy, etc.). i was slowly becoming further and further from you. but you got better. you got happier. so if thats what it takes, then im all for it. we’ll rendezvous on calmer seas. in a faraway but not so distant island.
lets do our own thing. lets give each other this time and “space” to grow up. we’re going to be great adults. this is our first step. i will always love you. i will always be here when you desperately need me. my shoulder is invisibly tattooed with your name on it if any tears need shedding. and when i get my own place, my door will always be open to you.
take this time to find yourself. im using it to find me. i love you. i always have. and ive got this hunch that i always will. :0)
